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PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

"He was the only medicine to her restless soul
And she was the cure to his broken heart
Both were broken in a way
She was his drug and he was her addiction"

Feelings unsaid

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

She wished to see him succeed
She wanted to be by his side always
He just wished her presence
He prayed for her
His every prayer had her in it
She was the apple of his eyes
He loved her but didn't let her know
She too had feelings for him but never expressed
She was the first person
With whom he shared every good and bad news
He was the one with whom she was always in touch no matter what
Miles apart they were in different cities
Their soul was one but spilt in two different bodies
Their relation never required a name
It was just perfect the way it was
Understanding each others silence they read minds
They had mastered the courage to fall in love
With distance and time
The smile on their face was constant
She was his reason to smile
And he was her reason to live

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

Its all the play of feelings my dear
Sometimes they are emotional
At times intense
And some other time complicated
The color of writing is immense
Just that I choose a particular shade of my own

Fate

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEARTS

She was supposed to steal all the lime light that day
She made sure she got all the attention
Fate had other plans
The day she was supposed to get engaged to someone
She got committed
But to DEATH

Just her

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

Often she scribbled her heart's sayings on a sheet of paper
She shared them on social networking and got many likes
Her own compositions they were
Really close to her heart
Lil did she know one day her hobby would turn into her passion
Possessive she was about her work
She fell in love always but with herself and her compositions
She never needed someone's presence beside her
Happy she was in her own lil world filled with compositions
Amongst the world full of love, breakups, friends
She was the love angel completely & madly in love
But with her ownself and her writings
She proved that,
Not always we need a person to fall in love with

Simple yet powerful

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

"In the calm and quite night only her silence and her beating heart made the noise"

Caged and freed

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

Their fights didn't bother her anymore
Their talking happily did

Their yelling didn't trouble her
Their talks did

Their calls didn't disturb her anymore
Their messages did

Their hatred didn't annoy her
Their love did

Their upset faces didn't anger her
Their happy smiles did

Their care didn't threaten her
Their over understanding did

She was a girl who wasn't at all understood by them
Now that they had suddenly started to understand her
She was worried
A gut feeling of something really wrong hit her heart
Then she realised that
They were pacifying her to get married
She wasn't against getting married
It is just that she wasn't ready to get into any commitments now
But alas they didn't understand
Her instinct wasn't wrong at all
Coz it was an emotional trap laid down for her
Her intuitions were right
Finally, she broke all the barriers
And just flew away to an unknown and unusual world
They were left with her memories and nothing else

LOVE: MAKES THE IMPOSSIBLE POSSIBLE

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

She was his weakness
He was her strength
He camouflaged her mistakes most of the time
She accepted her love for him every time
She didn't trust love before he came
Now she doesn't believe anything except love
He was like the clear day sky
And she was the open night sky
He never dreamt of having her in his life
Not in her worst nightmares she had seen him in her life
After all unexpected things are bound to happen in love
An arranged marriage it was
A compromise they thought
But now it was beyond the boundaries of any relation
Finally, two hearts had started to beat as if they were one
The two souls which were away
Were now dwelling in one body
Ahh....!! This love makes impossible things possible

Her freedom

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

They struggled a lot to be together
In a relation they were for many years
They met once in two or sometimes once in many years
Their heart was interchanged
He was with her in the roughest phase of her life
And she stood by his side each time
They never felt that they were lonely
They had one another's invisible company
Her parents tried hard to separate them but failed utterly
His family had already accepted her
Finally, she walked off to his place
Where she had many people waiting for her arrival
They treated her more like their daughter
And she had considered them as her parents
She was blessed to have another family with her
Their love had overpowered every ritual and religion
It had left residue of hatred, anger, tears and revenge
Away she was happy with him & her new family
No one ever found where she was
Bcoz she made sure no clue was left behind
She walked in water so that her foot prints wouldn't be found

Mere bina

Kabhi socha naa tha zindagi itni badal si jaayegi
Kabhi jaana naa tha unke bina jeena itna mushkil hoga
Woh jab ho kar bhi nahi the hamare liye
Toh kya farak padta hai ki
Hum unki zindagi mein hai ya nahi
Jab hamari maujoodgi se unko kabhi koi farak pada nahi
Toh zaahir si baat hai,
Hamari gair maujoodgi bhi unko sukoon hi de jaayegi

Memories

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

"They smiled looking at the photos
She had tears in her eyes and he had a wide smile
Their baby's childhood reminded them of theirs
Some memories are cherished
And some are moments are to re-lived
They became kids again"

Her super hero

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

She stole his heart the day he saw her
In his arms she was with Lil hands, legs and tiny tiny fingers
His happiness was uncontrollable
He was afraid of hurting her
He carried her in his arms for some years and in his her forever
She made place in his heart beats
He smiled when he saw her take her first step
She held his hand and learnt to walk
He stood like a strong pillar with her always
She always relyed upon him
At times they fought and soon got back to being normal
She laughed her heart out when he cracked silly jokes
He was overwhelmed to see her laugh
He knew no bounds when he met her after a long time
She was the most excited on his arrival
Grown up she was yet she will be his Lil baby girl always he said
Coz he is her father
He sent her to another house with his eyes moist
She was in tears to see her hero cry
Even though she had left his house , she always sat in his heart
He is proud of his Lil angel and will always be
She will never leave her daddy's hand
After all, father is that one man who never hurts his daughter
Their bonding is beyond words
A relation they share which no one else can
No matter how old they grow,
No matter how many generations come and go
She will be his baby doll and he will always be her super hero

A GIRL

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

Who is she...?? What is she made for..?? Why is she put into this world...?
     Lemme answer
      She is an angel, God's angel put here amongst us for our sake, for the sake of wellness, to wipe our tears in the form of mother, sister, friend, girlfriend, wife, daughter. She comes with many relations attached to her as soon as she is born. Just like how relations get attached so do people. Along with relationships she is burdened with responsibilities which is more than her own weight.
   At an early age she needs to sacrifice her respect, her confidence for her  younger siblings,  for the sake of others she quits her studies. Just because people want her to get married she needs to quit her dreams, her ambitions.
What do they think of her..?? If at all it would be a boy in her place, he would be allowed to fulfill all his wishes and do as per his will.
    She isn't allowed to speak in front of elders but they can question everything about her even about her character but she shouldn't say a word. What sort of justice is this? What kind of equality is this? She should put her head down when boys tease her. Why so..? She shouldn't study more than the guy she marries. Why? Why is it so that boys can tease girls and she shouldn't say a word? Just because you are a girl...!!
   Why so much prejudices? Just because she is a girl.
She isn't made for getting married, bearing all the pain, every insult & giving birth to a baby & just be locked up inside the four walls.
   She is made to like happily, she is made to study, she is made to fly in the sky, she is made to fulfill all her dreams, she is put here to take care of her family and enjoy in every possible way not to just die inside the box of house. Why should she quit her career for the sake of having kids? Why always a girl foetus is aborted? Why should a baby girl suffer?
  Just because she is a girl?
Is it her mistake that she is a girl? Actually to be a girl is a blessing not a burden. Not all get a chance to be a girl, to be a woman, to bear a baby, to handle all the pain.
   Even though she is a girl, she does everything for her family. As a daughter she does for her father, as a sister she does for her brother, as a wife she does for her husband, almost gives up in the labour after which she lives for her children. 
    Everything she does and gets the credit of nothing. Doesn't she have the right to live for herself? Why isn't she supposed to be happy? Why doesn't she get appreciation for things she does? Why always she kills her wishes?
  
  Don't force her to accept your decisions. Let her be to herself because, she is after all a human being as well.

Why always a GIRL....????

Feelings

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

She jumped in joy when she heard his name
He knew no bounds when he saw her
She illuminated his world
He decorated her in every possible way
He was every girl's dream boy
She never disclosed her feelings for him
But he read her eyes and accepted her without her telling anything
That's the reason why feelings aren't in need of words
All you need is an understanding heart

Presence mattered

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

He wanted her to be with him always
She stayed by his side
He didn't utter a word
Neither did she speak
Distance didnt matter to them
Just presence did

World made no difference

She missed him more than anyone that day
He didn't get sleep the whole night
She too didn't get a wink of sleep
Coz Both were awake in each others dreams
He was miles apart yet near to her
There was distance between them
It was a relation of hearts not of blood
But it was stronger than blood relations
He caught her hand before she fell
She held him firm when his steps weren't straight
He was dependent on her
He was her all time support
His family knew her so did her family know about him
The cacophony was evident in her life
And only he could calm it down
His words worked magic for her
And her encouragement did wonders
They never expressed gratitude towards each other
Never did they have any expectations from anyone
Only the fact mattered that,
He was there for her and she was there for him
Rest of the world didn't make any difference to them in their lives

Just about him

She had seen a marriage break down in front of her eyes
She had lost all trust in every relation
He came like a gust of wind who blew her off her feet
She had started to see life in a new way for which he was the reason
He too belonged to a broken family where he didn't get an inch of love
Her mother flaunted her off as if she was a trophy
His father never cared if he was alive or dead
Both found peace in each other's company
Their parents never agreed for their relation
And for them, it never mattered if they agreed or not
He smiled inspite of being broken from within
She laughed even when she had tears in her eyes
They both fell in love with each other's imperfection
She showered him with motherly affection
He poured her with fatherly protection
She felt safe when she was with him
He felt loved when he was with her
Unknowingly, their fear had lost in front of their love
Now their families didn't matter to them
Coz she was his world and he was her only family

Lost battle

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

She cried herself to sleep
Even though she was on her bed sleep evaded her
Thousands of things were on her mind
Restless she was
Twisting and turning she spent the whole night
She wept most of the time yet no one calmed her down
She screamed covering her mouth so that no one could hear her
She was there for others when they needed her
But no one was there when she needed someone
Her carefree heart was lost behind the pain she was going through
Her cheerful smile was missing in front of the agony she faced
No one understood her
Everyone just blamed her for no reason
They misunderstood her and mistook her words
They saw his blood shot eyes but no one bothered noticing her swollen eyes
They scolded her for making him cry but didn't wait to wipe her eye
Again, ego won over love
A father won the battle of respect, ego and love
A daughter lost the battle to patience, pain and tears

Them

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

He had lost hope in things
She filled him with energy always
He had accepted failure even before he ran the race
She peped him up to give a try
They both had practiced equally for the race
He decided to quit but she didn't let him
She was determined to make him run
She made sure to pull him along with her if he would quit
He was being negative about not competiting
Coz he was afraid of the crowd
He forgot that she was with him and he needn't worry about the crowd
She held him firm by his hand
She promised not to leave him ever
She kept her word
Throughout the race she didnt leave his side
They ran together and he won the race
After all, not always you find 'A' person who is different from the crowd
His victory was for her
And the smile on her face was beyond description

Vidhi

Avana naguve avalige sangeeta
Avala kaalgejje sadde avanige raaga
Sangeetada raaga taaladante beretaru ibbaru
Kanninnda kambaniya haniyu beeladiruvante kaapadida avanu
Mauna bangara maatu belli
Avara katheye bere ittu
Avalu avana baalina nauke aagidalu
Avanu jeevakinta hecchaagi priti kota avalige
Prati hejje avala joteyalle iruva maatu kotta
Devara icchhe bereno ittu
Kasidu konda avala prapanchava
Doora hodaru hrudayada hattira idda avanu
Avanigoskara idi jeevana kaledalu
Konegu seridalu avananna avalu
Vidhiye aata, devara iccheye ella

Preeti

"O olave, bidadiru nanna kaiyya" avanu helida
"Neen iddare nanu, naan iddare bere ella" helidalu avalu
Premada doniyali teluta hodaru bahu doora
Baaki janara bagge chinte irale illa avarige
Kappu baaninali bili chukkiyante iddalu avalu avana baalalli
Vishaala akashadalli haaraduva pakshiya haage idda avanu avala badukalli
Birugaali beesitu ommele muriyitu doni
Bere bere teera seridaru yaradu prema pakshigalu
Ene aadaru oppikolluvantilla avaru bere aada vishaya
Hudukalu horataru mattomme pritiya
Sigade besaravaagi bandaru tamma manene
Maduve aaitu ibbarigu aadare gottagade
Avanu hudugiya mukha nodalilla,
Avalu kooda tale etti hudugana noduva prayatna madalilla
Akasmikavaagi yaaradu Asamagra jeevi aadaru samagra
Yaakendare saptapadi tulidu avana maneya gruhalakshmiaagi
Bandiddu bere yaaru alla avanu atyanta pritisida aa hudugi
Devarigu sahisalaarade ondu maadida yaradu aatamva

She mattered the most

"PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART"

The feathers in his hand made her smile
It was peacock's feathers
She loved them all
He couldn't afford anything expensive But what he got was most precious
Her eyes shined and he was satisfied to see her happy
It was the best gift she had ever got
She thought he had forgotten her gift But he made sure she smiled always
Bcoz that's where his life was
He was her dad & his dream was to see his only daughter smile

Love is all that matters

PEARLS FROM THE OCEAN OF HEART

'Baby, you look beautiful' he said even when her hair was messed up
She blushed and her cheeks got the darkest shade of pink
He never knew that someone could love him so deep
Broken he was and she had mended him
Always stood by his side even he chose to walk on the crooked roads
At 2 am, they sat on the roof and spoke their hearts outs
She slept in his arms like a small kid
He loved to see her sleep
She was the calm and serene river
He was the swimming fish
People could see their love in their eyes
She wished to see him happy
He wanted to build their dreams together
She's one such darling that every guy wished to have in his life
But she belonged to him
She had her heart closed for love, trust and other relations
He was the sunshine who peeped into her heart and made her shine
Inside the dark room of her soul, he had made a big room for himself
Somewhere she let him do it coz she had the hunger of love
She had always had a thirst of trust
He fulfilled all her wishes and had taught her to live
She smiled and it made his day
He smiled back and she got her reason to live
Before he came she was just a living corpse
Now she was a breathable soul
She had no limits to love him
They both had set each other free
Coz LOVE is another name of FREEDOM
Love never gives the rights to rule people
It just allows us to love them & live with them
When he was beside her she never bothered to look around the world
Coz her world was right next to her

Assumptions

Did I do the right thing? she wondered
She was in love with someone who told that he loved her as well
His actions contradicted his words
Her love was pure with no one sharing it
His so called love was true is what he proved
She was in a dilemma whether to hold on or let go
There was a tug of war between her heart and mind
Her mind wanted to let go
Heart wished to hold on
Lil did she realize, she was holding on to such a relation
Which just broke her bit by bit
She was just being tested
He thought, she wouldn't leave
And she thought he would change
Just that both were blind folded by their own assumptions
Finally, she let go the relation and proved him wrong
His belief shattered, coz he always thought,
She wouldn't leave as she loved him
Yes! Indeed she loved him but not more than her self respect
And she walked off this time forever to a place
Where he couldn't even find her
She just got lost in the crowd
And he searched her every where except  in the crowd amongt people

Love: can't be conquered

"Baby, I Love You! Don't ever leave me" he whispered
She just bent her head and he got his answer
Her eyes revealed all her feelings
He read her eyes and got her reply
The varied time zones, the distance of miles, couldn't decrease their love
They met after years
They reconginzed each other just as their eyes met
He gave her a long tight hug
His head was up so that no one could set eyes on his girl
Her head was down coz she felt safe in his arms
The slight breeze blew a strand of her hair on her face
She looked beautiful than ever
He fell for her once again
She looked at him and all she could see was love, love and only love
The distance never decreased their love
Miles apart they stayed awake to talk to each other
She yearned for his company,
He missed her hugs
Still they were together
Many proposed her as well someone else proposed him
But they both rejected, coz they were in a life time commitment
He handled her mood swings
He consoled her when she cried
He laughed when she smiled
He made her eat sitting at his place
She listened to his words each time
The past time flashed in front of their eyes as they sat together holding hands
After all, being committed to each other in a long distance relation wasn't easy
Their love was strong than the distance
Again, LOVE proved that it's above everything
Not even distance could conquer the power of love

Heart has its own way

"You and I are we together till the end of time" she always told
He promised to never let her go
She loved for whatever he was
He loved her coz she had made him
She had him within her
And he had her inside him
She was that lil baby everyone wished to have but she was only his
He had that father within him whom every daughter wished to have
She made him strong when he felt weak
He made her his all time strength
When the ray of hope flickered she stood by his side
She was that light house who provided light in the sea of life
He reached the shore safely just coz of her
Even in the worst weather of her life she stood firm just for him
She was his reliable backbone on whom he could rely all the time
They were inseparable
He fought with people and turned towards her for help
She wiped his tears and consoled him in a way no one else could convince
He liked her coz she was always patient with him
Never did she lose her calm
It was just him and her who were a part of his lil world
They teased each other in a humorous way
They spoke for whole long day and never got bored
She was a never ending power house of smile, energy and faith
He was a lil child who found warmth in her company
He always longed to be with her and wished time would stop
She probably waited for a day when they would be together forever
And no one would separate them,
Not even time
He jut loved her for no reason
And she loved the fact that he loved her unconditionally
Coz love has no reasons and logic
It's just hearts way to keep them close

"Nishyabdha"

Sambandha avana praana
Geletana avala jeeva
Nishyabdha avana priti
Haadu avala raaga
Doora iddaru manassu jotegittu
Vina kaarana nagutiddaru
Raatri nodutiddaru kappu baanannu
Hudukutiddaru manass shanti
Aadare koneyaagalilla avara shodha
Bere bere jaagadalliddaru maatu nillalilla
Hattira bandaga avara jagatte bere ittu
Avalu avananna sampoorna madidalu
Avanu avalanna purti maadida
Hondi kondu hodaru kai hididu jotege
Bhaya kaadutittu avananna
Avalu illade iralilla avana prapancha
Iddalu avalu avana jote sada
Kaarana avala jeeva avanu
Avana 'Nishyabdha'va pritisidalu avalu
Avala 'Mauna'vannu ishta patta avanu
Onde haadina yaradu swaravaadaru
Konegu antya kanditu avara shodha kaarya
Sikkitu avanige manass shaanti avalalli
Avana naguve avala manass shaanti aaitu

His smile, her world

He loved chattering around
She would listen to him with rapt attention
He was low that day and she could make out
Yet he tried hiding but all in vain
She smiled at him and he looked into her eyes
She understood everything
Again it was a fight with his friends which was troubling him
She hated to see him sad
She tried to cheer him up
But he was in no mood to smile
She made a crying puppy face
Instantly he smiled a bit then wide and then wider
Finally he was back to his normal self
She held his hand tightly and he caught her hand ever more tight
Her eyes had given him assurance
Words are needed when silence can't speak
But with them words were the last thing on the list
Coz everytime eyes, smile and silence did it all, simultaneously

Just that Love needs to be true

His eyes were vacant
Her eyes were sharp enough
She noticed the vaccum in his eyes
He tried hiding but couldn't
She read his mind
And soothed his soul
People whom he thought were his own
Just dumped him and walked off
He was left alone in the crowd
He tried running away but ran into her
She just hugged him and he forgot all his pain
He cried like a baby on her lap
She didn't console him instead let him shed tears
Finally, his sobs died down
And he drifted off to sleep
She watched him sleep peacefully
His face reminded her of a Lil baby
She smiled looking at him
And a tear drop just slid down her eye
He woke up to see what happened
He caught her crying
She just brushed off giving some silly reasons
He hugged her even tight
Whole time he didn't let her hand go off
She sat and just watched him sleep
There she was who did nothing
She just cared for him
More than his people did
That's why he prefers to stay with her
Than with those who fake themselves
He liked her coz she was real
And she accepted him as he was
Coz not always one needs to be perfect to be loved
Just that love needs to be true

His baby

She often thought about a guy who had no existence in her life yet
Always dreamt about one single person
Lil did she know that he was with her always
The blowing wind had his presence
The pouring rain had his essence
He missed everything until he saw her
She was lost in a world which had no one except her
He had crept into her world without her knowledge
She had made place in his dreams
Distance wasn't an issue at all
They shared the same dreams at times
Insecurity, over possessiveness had no place in between them
They both loved flowers, nature and enjoyed its beauty together
He was their only son and she was their only daughter
They had no idea about their untold feelings
But their parents knew
She loved irritating him and he loved to get irritated but only by her
They both enjoyed rain
He missed her badly at times
And she would be in touch with him through some means
She never uttered a word but her eyes said it all
Her spectacles made no difference to what she had to say
He could read his eyes easily
Against the world they stood as a couple years after
Yet the feelings needed no words
His care and her support was the lifeline of their relationship
Immense trust they had on each other
Unconditional love was always there
She was his baby girl
She found glimpse of her father in him
He protected her and stood by her side always no matter what
After all, there is a child in every girl
And a father in every man
That's why he called her his Lil "baby"

And the nameless relations are the best

She was bubbly, cheerful, happy-go-lucky types
He was quite, decent, shy kind
They both met at unexpected time, unexpected day in an unexpected way
That day onwards their life just changed
Nothing was the same
Neither she was nor was he
They both longed to talk to each other
In a place where there were aliens in disguise
They found each other as humans
She loved chocolates
And he loved to watch her enjoy her chocolates
He got them for her each day without fail
He sat behind her and they spoke all day long
But never got bored
She changed him for his good
His presence had a positive impact on her
She often captured candid pictures of his for memory
And he held her in his heart
They loved to walk by the beach side
And listen to the crashing waves
The waves touched their feet and went back
At each step, they left their foot prints
Together they walked, side by side
She had a child alive within her
And he had a heart of a father to understand her
Their eyes did most of the talking
Words were not always necessary
He loved spending time with her
And she killed time until he came
The size of his smile told how important she was
The shine in her eyes told what place he had in her life
Again, theirs was an un-named relationship
Which was above all the relations
And was the best when it was nameless

"His happiness"

She was his childhood crush
He was her first love
They both grew up together
Without knowing one another's feelings
They crossed each others mind atleast once in a day
She was with him at each step from then
He held her firm always
They never expressed their feelings
But their eyes spoke everything
People teased them, thought of them as a couple
Again, it was immature of them to pay heed to other's words
His mom loved her and her mom respected him
They were always found together
One knew the reason behind another's smile or tears
They stared at each other for hours and never got tired
Time passed, they grew up and got separated
Finally, she decided to give words to her feelings
She blurted her heart out one fine day
And he just "friendzoned" her
He had different plans & thought her as a friend
She was hurt but not weak to beg in front of him
He always thought she was different from him
She was sure he was the same old guy whom she knew before
He just walked off as if nothing happened
She smiled seeing him happy
After all, he was her first love ever
She decided against expressing her feelings once again
Coz for her, it was only his happiness which mattered
Even though she wasn't the reason for it
She was satisfied seeing him smile
After knowing that someone made him smile
The way she always wanted him to smile
Not all love stories need happy endings always
Some love stories are incomplete yet completely beautiful all by itself

Love

She was lost in her own world
Unknowingly tears flowed from her eyes
She was totally broken but didn't show it to anyone
She felt someone's presence behind her
A hand touched her shoulder
She turned back & it was him
She hurriedly wiped her tears & smiled at him
He knew something was wrong but didn't know what
She was going through another rough day of her life
He just hugged her tightly
All she needed was a hug to break down again
She wept and sobbed like a lil baby in his arms
He held her tighter and she hugged back even more tightly
She was missing something but yet again didn't know what
He kissed her forehead and whispered,
"I'M THERE WITH YOU, MY BABY, NO MATTER WHAT"
She smiled with her eyes moist
Not bcoz he understood her silence
Just coz she wasn't alone this time to face hardships of her life
After years, someone was with her, stood along her side
Which meant a lot and gave her an assurance
After all, Love is not only about happiness
It's all about being together in the worst seasons of life

Mistakes

The clock ticked away
Seconds passed by as if it was an hour
Minutes went by as if they were days
I was waiting for you
But you never came
Your talks made me smile even when i was in tears
Your smiling face gave me some relief at the end of the day
I would eagarly wait to see you the next day
But you were too busy to even look at my face
One day I walked off to a place where you cannot search me
Just to see if you really cared
Your face came in front of my eyes each time I blinked
Its just YOU who had a big place in my lil heart
Coz you loved me when I didn't love myself
Before you used to be on time and I would be late
Later, I came before time but you never took the trouble of coming
That day you saw me for the last time I suppose
I guess its time for us to part ways
You are a part of my past
I'll make sure you don't make it into my future
Coz a single mistake can't decide my entire my life

Un-named relations

Songs soothed their souls
They spoke for hours and never got bored
He believed her smile was the reason for his changed behaviour
And she thought his presence made all the difference
They had same likes and dislikes
Naughty he was and she was like a child in front of him
They spoke about everything under the sun
He never hesitated to hug her
And she never stopped herself from troubling him
Not a day would pass when they both didn't talk
Both had great interest in cooking
She wanted to eat food cooked by him
And he wished to taste the dish prepared by her
They met some months back
And it felt as though they have always known each other
Her smile made his day and his laughter made her smile wider
After all not all relations have a name
Some relations are the best when they aren't named
But are just felt by heart ....

Chandamama

Kaanade ninna besaravaagihe naa
Rangoliya chukkiyate kappu baanalli minuguva taare nodi santosha paduve
Ninna nodi, ninnondi maatanaadi abhyasa nanage
Eega eno bittante aabhaasavagide nanage
Ninna nagu nodi santasadinda kunidaduve naa
Aakasha khaali enisutide nee illade
Beladingala kelage kutu halavaaru baari uta maadihe naa
Ninna neralalli aatavadihe
Muttuva aase ninna
Aadare saadhyavagadu endu tilide naa
Ene irali, hee irali ninna nodi kalitihe paathava
Modadolage avitukoluve naa
Aadare ninna belaku kadime aagadu
Baana purti ninnade raajya oh chandamama idu ratari
Kaanade nee nondihe naa
Bega baa nanna pritiya chanadamama

Just her

Lonely she felt, afraid she was
Alone in the crowd she search for some familiar face
But found none
Her eyes were moist, heart weeped in dispair
She controlled her emotions
Putting on the brave front she made way into the crowd
Lost she was with no one to lead the way
She just wanted to cry but in someone's arms
Let alone be asking no one gave a damn that she was missing
With her heavy heart she stepped outside her house
She carried nothing with her except pain
Once out in the air, she just knelt on the floor and cried out loud
She slept like a baby and sobbed till her own voice died down
No one was worried about her
None checked on her whereabouts
She always thought they cared for her
But that day she gotta know the true faces of those people
Who yelled at her that they cared for her
She wanted a tight hug,
A hug which would tell that she isn't alone anymore
A hug which reassured that she was right
A hug that conveyed her helplessness
A hug which stuck back her broken pieces
But she got none
She hugged herself, cried for a long time
As the night got darker, she walked back to her house
This time too no one noticed her eyes
The next day she was fine
As if she hadn't cried her heart out last night
All this was a proof of her strength
Yet people told that she was weak,
If being weak means behaving as if nothing has happened
Then what does being strong mean....????

Coz LOVE has no reason

He loved it when she pampered him
She liked it when he cared for her
He loved the way she treated him
She wanted to be pampered by him
But he never did
She tried her level best to make him smile
And he didn't even bother to appreciate her efforts
He just pointed out her mistakes
She found a lil bit of love in between all his sharp talks
He found only childishness in her always
She kept quite thinking that he may realize her love for him
His words were sugar coated yet harsh
But she forgot that there was someone else who loved her
Without her doing anything for him
That someone pampered her with his care, concern
She was trying hard not to disclose her feelings to anyone
Stuck in between two boats she started sinking into the sea of love
He thought her as an instrument to pass his time
And there was that someone who loved to spend his time with her
That someone was the reason why she laughed
There was an unsaid bonding in between her and that someone
Their eyes did the talking while lips just curved into a smile
Somewhere she was getting to know that he wasn't in love with her
That someone started to fall for her innocence,
The child within her stole his heart
She never realized that the first was one was a mistake
And the second was true love
That someone didn't express his feelings
They met every single day inspite of their busy schedule
His look would convey things to her
Her smile would make his smile wider
Lil did she know the reason why her heart cared so much for that someone
She had started to forget things
He finally put his heart out in front of her
And there she was in his arms but this time forever
Coz LOVE has no reason and the reason to be together is LOVE

It's All about Love

"What's love according to you" she asked
For me, LOVE is YOUR other name & YOU are one more form of LOVE
She has always been his lil baby and she treated him like a kid
With all her love she pampered him every day
And he made every single effort to keep his angel happy
Without him, the agony which she faced was the worst
She was that missing peice of the jigsaw puzzle of his life
He had built a wall around the territory of his heart
She was the only one who jumped into his territory without his permssion
The long hugs which he gave her made her feel safe
The kisses on his forehead which she gave worked magic for him
Her eyes caste a spell on him
Each time he held her, an electric current passed through her
He did nothing different to her
Just that he stole her lil broken heart and she never noticed
She healed all his raw and dry wounds in a way which no one else could
Its all in the game of life that they were still the players
In the hands of Almighty
Their love was an example for
LOVE COMES IN ALL SIZES, SHAPES AND AGE
Coz he was younger than her which never really mattered
All that mattered was her love, belief and compassion for him
As well as his care, concern & trust for her

Journey with nature

The aroma of wet mud soothes the shattering soul
Clean rain drops heals all the wounds old & new
Greenary spread everywhere is such a nice view
The clouds playing around the scrotching hot sun looks beautiful
Evening sky has a lot to tell
Window seat while travelling is the best on such evenings
A part of white cloud in between the dark ones is so mesmerising
It's as if it'll pour anytime soon
Yet the white cloud survived
Orange rays of the setting sun, hits the white cloud
Watching the beauty of nature is undefinable
Small drops of rain fall on my hand making me smile
Those drops fall on the tracks & the sun makes them shine
That one white cloud is reflected by the evening sun
Lil rays ultimately pour through the clouds
Again the clouds hide the sun within them & pour heavily
Still the white cloud has sustained it's existence
Slowly the sun sets behind the tall hills
The clouds seem to touch the tip of some mountains far away
I can see some people walking back home from work
And some kids waving at the passing train
Standing at the door the breeze hits my face messing my hair
I can feel the wind playing with my skin
I feel it's not about the destination
Its all about the journey
Some travel for name sake
And some others travel to enjoy the nature's love
Life has been so busy that we fail to notice the nature outside
Some people just brush off their thoughts and go to sleep
And some just put their feelings in words
Just like I did

Love never dies, lovers do

Sitting alone under the open sky she was lost in her thoughts
What went wrong? Where was she when he was suffering?
She often got lost in the ocean of worries
She loved him more than anyone
He too left no stone unturned to make her happy
They were made for each other
Inseparable was the synonym for them
Fate had something else in store
She believed almighty without any limits
He trusted her & she believed the Lord
They met accidently, but it was the best mistake of their life
Each day he fought a battle with death
He had a secret which no one knew about except him
Death was at his door knocking every now & then
It was death's reminder that he had to leave
He decided to carry all her memories along with him
She felt strange when she had to wait alone, for his arrival
She got upset with him
But he was making her learn to live without him
His love was the reason why she was alive
Her care was his daily doze of drug
Which he yearned for till his last breath
She fed him food that day coz he just wanted her to feed him
For her, it was his happiness & satisfaction
But for him, it was his last wish
Each day he made her sleep on his lap
But that day he slept on her lap, like a baby
She felt odd yet happy
She had no idea about his worsening condition
Until she gotta know the truth
She cried as if she hadn't shed tears for years
Life was slipping away, he neared death each passing second
Again Love won over Death
She brought him back from the mouth of death
He got back life as blessing in disguise
From that God whom he never worshipped
Her love for him proved that
TRUE LOVE NEVER DIES, JUST LOVERS DO.....

Beach side

The waves are so soothing
The sound of the crashing tides calm my soul
The wet sand slips away under the feet
The smell of the beach side gives a relieving feel
The salty water hits my legs, washes away all the dirt
The beautiful sand castle stands still
Lit with candles, looks no less than a palace
The color changing sky, touches my soul
The setting sun & the raising moon look amazing
With clouds here & there to play with the beach view is breath taking
Tiny fishes play around, star fishes here and there
Spiders running around to save their life just pull life out of me
They birds are returning home with their gang
Amongst all, I stand alone with no with next to me
To enjoy the late evening in front of the beach
Sometimes, even the strongest tide needs a rock
To stop it from going ahead
Likewise even the happiest person needs someone to share their feelings

Irony

Those who smile the most are the ones who have deep pain dug with them
The one who makes others happy is  often the most unhappy
The eyes which speak a lot are sometimes misunderstood
The lips which curve into a smile are the ones who wear a plastic smile
Those who laugh out loud are the ones who find reasons not to cry
People who pretend to be strong
Are the ones who need just a tight hug
Those eyes which are moist yet not moist
Are those pair of eyes who try hard not to shed tears
A heart which cares the most is the one which has lotta scars on it
For the world, they are scars but for me they are tattoos
The wound which seems to be dried are still fresh
Life is all about the contradictions
And irony of fate
Again its only the play of mind which is always ruled by heart

Kuch ghaav bharte nahi

Kuch log reh jaate hai dil mein gehre chot ki tarah
Kuch yaadein gadh jaati hai mann ki gehraaiyon mein
Aksar dil ro padta hai unn logo ki yaad mein
Par hoth hai ki muskuraana bhoolte nahi
Aakhon mein paani aur rooh mein dard hone ke baawajood
Chaahta hai mann sab ka bhala
Koshish toh ki uss chot par malham lagane ki
Par afsos woh ghaav hai ki bharte nahi

Bharose ki keemat

Maalum naa tha logo pe bharosa karne ka natija hoga galat
Maalum naa tha logo pe bharosa karne ka natija hoga galat
Kar baitha yakeen ye naadaan dil unn matlabi logo par
Aksar soch mein dooba rehta hai mann
Bharosa kiya tha humne sacche dil se
Par galat toh log hai
Unn galatiyon par kya gaur karna, aye dil jo humne kiye hi nahi
Gaur karna hi hai toh iss par karo ki Humne unhe nahi
Balki unhone hume kho diya

Muskuraate hue

Muskuraate hue seekha humne jhoot bolna
Par aakhein hai ki sach chupa paaye nahi
Toot gaya sabr uss insaan ke saamne jiss par sabse zyaada tha yakeen
Naa jaane kyu apna sa lagne laga ek ajnabee saalo baas
Khol ke rakh diya dil ke kitaab ko uss ke saamne
Pyaar se uthaya hume uss ne
Bina kuch kahe gale lagaaya bade zor se
Magar pyaar kam huaa nahi
Chooma hamare maathe ko bade naazuk se
Hamari aakhon mein dekha
Aur kaha hamare kaano mein-
"Pari ho Aap, Meri Pari"
Jeet liya ussne hamara mann
Toote hue dil ko kuch iss tarah jod diya maano woh kabhi toota hi nahi
Ab bass ek khwaahish hai ki
Ho jaau main uski hamesha ke liye
Jeene ki icchaa jagi hai rooh mein
Jiyu toh uske sang aur maru toh uske liye

Dil ki aawaaz

Pyaar apne aap jagta hai dil mein
Usko bulvaaya nahi jaata
Mann kare toh bol dena
Aur naa kare toh bas apne dil ko taqleef mat do
Pyaar ek ehsaas hai jo hota hai do logo ke nahi,
Balki dilo ke beech
Mann se mann ka bandhan hai yeh
Jo rooh khud chunnta hai
Bhool naa jaana ki
Dil ko zubaan nahi bas awaaz hota hai
Uske awaaz ko zubaan par humein hi laana hai

❤

They were miles apart yet near
Simply they stood separately at their own destinations
Still they felt one another's presense next to each other
They both smiled looking at the sky
The moon smiled looking at them
Ans the stars thought about the distance
Which couldn't separate them
Time zones never mattered for them
The breeze made her shiver & he wrapped her in the blanket
It was the play of their minds
For the world it was all illusion,
But for them, it was a relation which the world never understood
Afterall, some people prefer to stay loyal in a long distance relation

Love

She was shorter than him but taller than all other girls
He was taller than her for a reason
She hugged him in front of all of them
He held her tightly without worrying about the world
She could hear his heart beat,
That was when she realised why she was an inch shorter than him
She looked down as the tear drop rolled down her cheeks
He held his head high, as if proud to have her
He could sense her crying, her tears soaked his shirt
But he didnt bother
He bent down to her ear and whispered
Angels don't cry, my love
She hugged him even tightly
His eyes were moist as well
At last, he had someone after his mother
He respected her as much he loved his mother
Gently he kissed her forehead, which was a token of his love for her
She couldn't expect anything more than the kiss she got
Words were never a medium to share their feelings
Their eyes did most of the talking
She was lucky to have him & so was he
Afterall, not all love stories end beautifully but theirs did

Her baby ♡

She loved those blue eyes
That cute face of his stole her heart
Two months old darling made her fall in love with him
His lil hands held her
She cuddled him like a baby
He slept off on her lap
With loads of love, care & tenderness she picked him up
And walked out of the pet shop with him in her arms
They walked off to his new home which he could call his own
Oh gosh..!!
Some love stories are undefinable

Her pride ♡

They were poles apart from each other but just physically
Mentally, he was on her mind & she was on his
Their love story was different
All the stories start from eyes & end at heart
But theirs started at heart & ended at eyes
Years passed by they hadn't met
Finally, the day they met was one of the best days of his life
And worst day of her life
He spoke a lot but she was mum
He touched her but she felt his skin was harsh
She maintained distance & he came closer to her
His eyes had a fire which had the capacity to destroy her
She looked away into the open
The lake in front had many ducks & ducklings playing, which she enjoyed
He too enjoyed not the atmostphere but her
Sitting under the open sky, he had many things on his mind
She wasn't a kid, she knew what his intentions were
It started drizzling but she didnt move coz he didnt let her
His body language was contradicting his words
He wanted to grab her & feel her flesh
But she didnt let him fulfill his needs
He came closer, held her tight & tried to kiss her
She had had enough, she slapped right across his face
He was stunned by her reaction
She walked off, without turning back
He realised his mistake & tears started flowing down his eyes
She left him alone this time he too knew she would never come back
It was raining; outside the clouds were pouring & inside her heart
They were tears of happiness
After all she broke apart
From a relation which had no name
She was happy & a free bird now
No one had ever ruled her but he had
She was fed up & wanted to leave
He knew she would leave him one day
The day she left him was the first & last day they met
Finally, she left him but this time forever

Just her ♡

The clear yet cloudy sky had loads of things to tell
The clouds formed themselves into different forms
They blocked the evening sun rays
But the rays cut the clouds & shone brightly in the evening sky
The silver rays looked beautifully designed by the a specialist
She was on her vehicle enjoying her ride
That was when she noticed the clouds playing with the sun
Lotta things on her mind she was lost in her thoughts
The breeze hit her face
The chilled air made her shiver
She just looked up & smiled
The first drops of rain of the day made her happy
Slowly, it started pouring down
The sky changed colors within minutes
She enjoyed her rain ride after a hectic day
Stopping by at an ice cream shop she had her chocolate ice cream
Passersby were staring at her, but she didn't give a damn
Like a kid she ate her ice cream in peace
It poured even heavily now
She didn't bother informing anyone about her whereabouts
As if they cared
Hours passed by but the rain didn't stop
She sat there in the ice cream parlour
In the cold, she loved having ice creams
She was in her own company when she realised that it's almost dark
Walking out into the open
She inhaled the fresh after rain air
Feeling lively, she rode off to her destination with a smile on her face
At times, spending some quality time with yourself is important
And she loved her own company
After all she too needs expert advice

Just them

Her patience knew no bounds
He did test her patience but never broke it
At times, she broke down but didn't let him know
Love was never a problem between them
She loved him unconditionally just like a mother
He was head over heels in love with her
No one could ever break their trust on each other
They fought for silly reasons but never blamed one another
Her smile was his strength & his happiness was hers
Their family was with them always
She was his family's sweetheart
And he was her family's gem
Never did they doubt on each other Unconditional love & never ending trust
Was the secret of their relationship
Simple they were with complicated love
She cried & he would be the first person to wipe her tears
Tears in her eyes was equal to poison
But her love was an antidote
Their love story was undefinable
After all they were imperfectly perfect with each other