She loved writing, her passion, her life it was and second she loved doing the most was teaching. She was already pursuing M.Com and was a home tutor. While all her friends were in big metropolitan cities, away from home, earning in thousands, without peace, she earned a little lesser than them but she was at home, at peace and happy. Her day passed by doing all the household chores in the morning, studying for sometime and then tuitions in the evening. She loved cooking as well.
That night, she was messed up, extremely confused if her marriage would be an end or a new beginning. She had to start training herself mentally, emotionally, physically to take the weight of marriage on her shoulders. 1/2 of her family wanted her to marry because they were aging and would say goodbye anytime. Next 1/4th wanted her to marry just because she was 24-25 and according to them it was "the right time" and the remaining of her family which had some handful number of people who would be in her support no matter what her decision would be. She wasn't against marriage but she didn't wish to marry at this particular time when things were all half done, settlement was no where near her. She wished to go to her new house completely not partly.
The whole night, she was just twisting and turning on the bed with millions of things on her mind. Main thing was her parent's security. Being the only child has its own perks at every step. When she was small, her parents did everything possible for her, in her childhood they took care of everything that they were supposed to in the best possible manner and now, now it was her turn to parent her aging parents like her own child with utmost love and care. She wanted the best for them before her departure. She wanted them to save as much as possible not for her but for themselves. Certain things she knew clearly about her next steps.
● She wouldn't be the only one spending on her marriage, he too would contribute. If she was marrying him, he too would be wedded to her so the expenses would be split amongst them.
● She would work after marriage for certain time.
● She would make some permanent arrangements for her parents to stay say a 1BHK at least which would belong to her parents alone.
● She always dreamt of a simple marriage and not a lavish wedding. A simple marriage where her most wanted people would be present with loads of happiness and laughs, they would all bless her. The food would be simple and no one would comment anything about it, be it on her face or behind her back.
● She would never stop keeping touch with her parents and close ones.
She was clear about where she wished to get married, away from South India. She was fine with even foreign countries but she didn't wish to settle down in the South Indian border at all. She had her own reasons for this.
The concept of marriage didn't facinate her much this time. Wearing saris all the time would be so uncomfortable she thought. Being loaded with loads and loads of jewellery like a mannequin she feared. She wished for an understanding husband who would take her side when she was right and would stand against her when she was wrong.
Marriage would certainly change many many things in her life but still she just wished her marriage would be a new beginning and not the end. Marriage brings new relations, new people, new bonds in one's life and accepting them wholeheartedly is much important than just accepting them. She stood on the crossroads of life where she was split between many things. She wished to accept the new person and his people wholeheartedly and not just half heartedly. She always wanted her decision to prevail over other forces.
As of now, her only decision was completely completing M.com, getting a job, standing on her own feet, totally independent and then watch who would accept her, because she knew some guys these days can't take it if the bride is much more educated than him. They can't stand the fact that she earns more than him. They're just making plans of pulling her down by every possible means. She didn't want such a life partner at all who would just pull her down at every step of her life instead she wanted someone who would have her back always no matter what the world has to say.
Thinking about everything, everyone, herself she slowly drifted off to sleep...
