WAITING TO BE SAVOURED

Waiting to be savoured

With the flavours of love

Love, I await you as if there's no end

To this wait, I'm waiting

The shooting star fulfills someone's wishes

As usual I hum my favourite song

I wish to have you as my home forever

Where I can come forever

No matter how good or bad my day will be

Being with you brings me peace

Eventually I wish to doze off

In your arms while you caress my hair

Kissing my forehead, when you wish to leave

In my deep sleep I tend to hug you much tighter

And eventually pull you back to me

Sleeping like a baby whole night

You just lie down and stare at me sleep

HUMMED HYMNS OF BRAVERY

Everyone Hummed hymns of bravery

Without knowing what actually it cost her

To be rebellious like a child

To be completely opposite

of what was expected from her

To be a different person altogether

To be something that she wanted to be

People still comment unconditionally

Some love her much more than before

She has fought battles in silence

Without showing her wounds and scars

She has been constantly underestimated

Always pricked by people for being strong

Ultimatum she gave by breaking her silence

After years she had spoken

And took a stand for her own self

Now she stands at a level

Wherein people try to pull her down

But fall off and die an untimely death

Even though they're alive, breathing

For her, they're dead long back

You don't belong to me anymore

You don't belong to me anymore

You're hers, you belong to her

You were my past and her present

She has left everything for you

You don't belong to me anymore

To be with you she has been waiting

To take 7 vows she has been joyous

To promise you to be with you, she's left her everything behind

You don't belong to me anymore

She's your wife, girlfriend, best friend

And everything else that she can be

Accept her and move on in life

You don't belong to me anymore

You can't call me whenever you want

Because she's with you, next to you

Sleeping peacefully like a baby

You don't belong to me anymore

Everything that we shared, 

The bond, relationship, care, rights and you

Everything is hers now,  nothing's mine

You don't belong to me anymore

You can't cling to me and pull her down

You shouldn't push her into water

Just to stay afloat with me

You don't belong to me anymore

Love and trust ended long back ago

Friendship wasn't there at all

Even tears have dried up now from my eyes

You don't belong to me anymore

You aren't my go to home like before

You can't cheat on her by talking to me

In her absence or her distance from you

You don't belong to me anymore

I won't cry for you to come 

For I know you can't come back

And mainly I don't want you to be back

You don't belong to me anymore

The shooting star finally fulfilled my wish

You're happy with someone else

And I'll pray for your prosperity always

You don't belong to me anymore

Neither you have the authority to raise your voice

Nor do you have the audacity to question me

She's your everything and only she should be

Us- You, Me and Her

I held back my feelings

Which I have had for you

Each time I saw you, 

I lost a lil bit of me

Each time I saw her with you,

A piece of my soul shattered

Every time you were with me,

She was present there too

It killed me to hold my feelings back

All the rights I felt I had on you,

She was the one who showed authority on you

The late night talks were the only means

For me to talk to you, to hear you out

I was afraid of losing our friendship

I didn't confess my love for you

Because she would break and shatter

I held my heart caged when it was you

Whom I was supposed to talk to

She liked you to the core

And I knew my feelings were beyond like

Reciprocation of feelings I felt at times

But then may be it wasn't for me I thought

Remember those afternoons

When we'd go to beaches?

I yearned to be with you, walk with you

But she was with you walking, talking

Remember those days when I used to cook just for you?

I wished to talk to you while cooking

You spoke as well but to her

That one strand of hair irritated me always

While I was busy doing my work

I wanted you to tuck it behind my ear

I didn't want any one night stand at all

But the lil romantic cherishable things

I wished from the bottom of my heart

You chopping and cooking for me

Or feeding me the food while I spoke non stop

Hugging me from behind and helping me chop

All the time, she was there

I yearned to hold your hands

Entwine our fingers and walk away on the sea shore

I don't know if it's love or jealousy or attraction

But yes, I died a silent death each time I saw you with her

Little of Everything

There is lack of kind

The kind of kind that

literally melts hearts

There is lack of faith

The faith in Lord, people

And also in one's own conscience

There is lack of Charity

The Charity that gives blessings

In return for giving away something

There is lack of smile

The smile that stays there

Forever, for generations

There is lack of communication

The communication that communicates

Much of love, care rather than hate

There is lack of happiness

The happiness that prevails

For another lifetime and more

There is lack of reality

The reality that reveals

One's true and pure self

There is lack of humanity

The humanity that doesn't divide people

Instead brings together as a whole

There is lack of talks

The talks that are heart to heart

And all real, soulful and true

There is lack of shine

The shine that makes eyes glitter

And soul smile from ear to ear

There is lack of appreciation

The appreciation which is genuine

With no harsh and tattered words

There is lack of trust

The trust that makes God happy

In people and on Almighty himself we don't trust

There is lack of love

The love that comes with no tags

No selfish motives and without conditions

There is lack of confidence

The confidence that

will get success along each time

There is lack of tolerance

The tolerance which is tested

By our very own people all the time

There is lack of patience

The patience that is lost somewhere

Behind the curtain of time

There is lack of Unity

That we all fail to realize

And fall as separate parts

Marriage: the end or a new beginning

           She sat confused under the night sky thinking who was right? What was wrong? At the age of 24, she was getting proposals from many prospective grooms who were also of the marriageable age. She hadn't met anyone at all. She had just heard about them, a lot for that matter. No doubt she had her own say in this matter, a strong independent girl she was after all. Her parents heard her decisions and understood them instead of forcing their wish on her. 

   She loved writing, her passion, her life it was and second she loved doing the most was teaching. She was already pursuing M.Com and was a home tutor. While all her friends were in big metropolitan cities, away from home,  earning in thousands, without peace, she earned a little lesser than them but she was at home, at peace and happy. Her day passed by doing all the household chores in the morning, studying for sometime and then tuitions in the evening. She loved cooking as well. 

      That night, she was messed up, extremely confused if her marriage would be an end or a new beginning. She had to start training herself mentally, emotionally, physically to take the weight of marriage on her shoulders. 1/2 of her family wanted her to marry because they were aging and would say goodbye anytime. Next 1/4th wanted her to marry just because she was 24-25 and according to them it was "the right time" and the remaining of her family which had some handful number of people who would be in her support no matter what her decision would be. She wasn't against marriage but she didn't wish to marry at this particular time when things were all half done, settlement was no where near her. She wished to go to her new house completely not partly. 

     The whole night, she was just twisting and turning on the bed with millions of things on her mind. Main thing was her parent's security. Being the only child has its own perks at every step. When she was small, her parents did everything possible for her, in her childhood they took care of everything that they were supposed to in the best possible manner and now, now it was her turn to parent her aging parents like her own child with utmost love and care. She wanted the best for them before her departure. She wanted them to save as much as possible not for her but for themselves. Certain things she knew clearly about her next steps. 

● She wouldn't be the only one spending on her marriage, he too would contribute. If she was marrying him, he too would be wedded to her so the expenses would be split amongst them. 

● She would work after marriage for certain time. 

● She would make some permanent arrangements for her parents to stay say a 1BHK at least which would belong to her parents alone. 

● She always dreamt of a simple marriage and not a lavish wedding. A simple marriage where her most wanted people would be present with loads of happiness and laughs, they would all bless her. The food would be simple and no one would comment anything about it, be it on her face or behind her back.

● She would never stop keeping touch with her parents and close ones.

          She was clear about where she wished to get married, away from South India. She was fine with even foreign countries but she didn't wish to settle down in the South Indian border at all. She had her own reasons for this. 

The concept of marriage didn't facinate her much this time. Wearing saris all the time would be so uncomfortable she thought. Being loaded with loads and loads of jewellery like a mannequin she feared. She wished for an understanding husband who would take her side when she was right and would stand against her when she was wrong. 

      Marriage would certainly change many many things in her life but still she just wished her marriage would be a new beginning and not the end. Marriage brings new relations, new people, new bonds in one's life and accepting them wholeheartedly is much important than just accepting them. She stood on the crossroads of life where she was split between many things. She wished to accept the new person and his people wholeheartedly and not just half heartedly. She always wanted her decision to prevail over other forces.

As of now, her only decision was completely completing M.com, getting a job, standing on her own feet, totally independent and then watch who would accept her, because she knew some guys these days can't take it if the bride is much more educated than him. They can't stand the fact that she earns more than him. They're just making plans of pulling her down by every possible means. She didn't want such a life partner at all who would just pull her down at every step of her life instead she wanted someone who would have her back always no matter what the world has to say. 

      Thinking about everything, everyone, herself she slowly drifted off to sleep...