The day I talk back...

The chaos around me

makes me go insane.

Yet I maintain my sanity 

so that I don't end up

troubling those who love me. 

I wonder if it's just me

who is going ahead with this relationship 

or is it the others involved too

who actually put in efforts 

to sail through the storm.

At times, I hit the rough patches 

I tremble, fall and

hold on to the cliffs as well

yet I'm blamed for hanging on.

Confusion grips my hands

and pulls me forcefully 

to the farthest ends.

Questions without answers 

roam around in my mind 

and I go about aimlessly 

doing nothing but waiting

for the answers which aren't in sight. 

Perseverance is the key I had heard

now I rethink if it's actually true 

for perseverance lets people 

take you for granted easily.

The day I talk back,

the house of cards will shatter 

and the shreds will spill

all over the place.

It'll be hard to gather them all

for along with the debris,

pieces of my heart and soul 

will also be found as well.

Insanity and insomnia hits me

as the night crawls in

letting my wander again

under the charcoal night sky. 

I wonder if this wandering will ever stop

or will I be a wandering soul

even in life afterlife.